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Critical Vacuum

I came to realise that I have a tendency to design in a vacuum; a void. A void is empty. To design in a vacuum would be to create something out of nothing. This is me taking control over the negative space in my mind to act like a god - creating things according to my own ideals of aesthetics, controlled imperfections, calculations, estimations and neutrality. The void I have carefully created inside my mind is like an incinerator. Things I observe on a daily basis get added to this burning void - torn apart and digested to fit perfectly to avoid disrupting the preexisting, carefully curated version of itself. Desynchronised thoughts and ideas get discarded. In a way, my void is dark and unflattering, beautiful yet invisible at the same time. The only thing that threatens the void is another conflicting void - a critic. Could there even be multiple ways of being empty? To challenge my void would be a direct attack on it. It would be shooting sparks towards the barren, serene emptiness of the void. This spark cannot be taken apart, it thrives in the emptiness, drawing all attention to itself. The spark is hated inside the void, yet it cannot be ignored - it stays there until it leaves on its own terms. The more I move the void around in the real and virtual world, the more it gets attacked - the more it takes over the void and tries to reshape it. In a way the sparks mobilise the void, making it orbit around other voids. It carefully avoids getting itself completely engulfed - or will it eventually, one day? When the void orbits around faster and faster around other ones - I lose control over it, I get dizzy. I have come to realise that in this phase of my life, I should treat the void as a dear pet - something that has its own existence and personality. It is something I could adore on my own ‘me time’ and whilst I’m on the move, something I should always keep on a leash to protect its own existence to prevent it from detaching from me. Rather than controlling the void, I now control the fragile leash that keeps it in controllable distance. But now the question is should I get another pet?

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A Big Number

03

A Good Game